So, the feeling normal was only a one day thing...but I guess it was nice to have that! Today I stayed home sick with a bad cold and sore throat. I honestly sound like I'm pinching my nose closed when I talk. It's really sexy. When I informed Ryan last night that during pregnancy your immune system isn't ever fully charged he very innocently asked, "Why?" I answered with a slight smugness to my tone, "Well, your body is kinda busy all the time making a baby." He nodded like, "Oh yea, I guess that would make sense." I felt a little bad for my tone, especially because Ryan has been so wonderful to me over the past couple of months since I haven't quite been myself. I asked him the other day if he felt like he was married to someone else and he said, "well, you're pregnant...you'll be you again in a few more months." Sad. It's not that I'm cranky or irritable (usually), I'm just not very much fun. And you all know how much I love fun, so it's just kinda depressing to just not feel like me. And, I want to want to eat again. Food used to be one of my very favorite things, and since I hit 5 weeks prego, I honestly think that unless I had to eat, I could go days without.
Anyway, everything is fine here. I really shouldn't complain. I have A LOT to be grateful for. I'm just having a small pity party for myself because I'm sick of being sick, and wondering if perhaps week 17 (next week) will be the magical week of relief!
Anyway, everything is fine here. I really shouldn't complain. I have A LOT to be grateful for. I'm just having a small pity party for myself because I'm sick of being sick, and wondering if perhaps week 17 (next week) will be the magical week of relief!
6 comments:
sorry laurel! one of these days you may get to enjoy being pregnant!
Cute Laurel. I love your candor. I'm sure you're still fun. Now that I'm not pregnant anymore and starting to lose weight...Justin says, "My Natalie is returning to me." Not just physically but emotionally too. I'm not as irritable and I actually want to cuddle when we watch a movie. Poor Justin...Poor Ryan. Poor husbands in general. Even though they're not growing life inside of them...their lives change pretty dramatically too. (: Loves! Hang in there!
"you'll be you again in a few more months"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
Sorry to laugh at ol' RyGuy, but I remember thinking that, too. I guess you'll always be you, but you'll never be who you were. The good news is that regardless of how parenthood changes things, you'll be a trio. It's all worth it.
Don't worry. You're pregnant... pity parties are not only allowed, I think they're sometimes essential. =) It's hard work growing a whole new person, especially when you don't feel well day after day! Totally understandable. You will probably be a different version of yourself at the end of the pregnancy, as motherhood will bring new experiences, emotions, opportunities, etc. But you will definitely be fun again! I'm not worried. Just give it time. You don't feel well, and it's okay to just take a break. (Just give it time after the baby is born, too... it's hard to be fun on just a couple hours of sleep... but repeat after me, "It will get better... It will get better!") Hope week 17 brings some relief!!
I'm so sorry, being sick is such a bummer! I remember having a cold when pregnant an it was horrible because you can hardly take anything. Well, things will turn around soon. Thinking about you and your little family.
Laurel, you're still a lot of fun :)!
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